We are the Sprocket Holes vol. 194

Tsukamoto, Lanthimos, Toyoda And More In TIFF 2011 Visions Program

ALPS Yorgos Lanthimos, Greece/France (North American Premiere)
A nurse, a paramedic, a gymnast, and her coach have formed a secret, illegal company. The service they provide is to act as stand-ins for the recently deceased, for the benefit of grieving relatives and friends. The company is called "ALPS" and the ALPS members, taking inspiration from the life of the deceased, adopt their behaviours and habits, memorizing favourite songs, actors, foods, familiar expressions. Although the members of ALPS operate under a disciplined regime demanded by the paramedic, their leader, the nurse doesn't.

KOTOKO Shinya Tsukamoto, Japan (North American Premiere)
The story of a single mother who suffers from double vision; caring for her baby is a nerve-wrecking task that eventually leads her to a nervous breakdown. She is suspected of being a child abuser when things get out of control and her baby is taken away.

Not That I'm Bitter or Anything vol. 14

feel like i'm bleeding inside my chest. like my lungs are melting or something. haven't written much here. haven't written much in general. hate summer. beyond sick of it. it's a rotting corpse at this point.

was told by a slightly overweight 19 year old girl that i wasn't attractive. that pretty much sums up all the rejections I've been experiencing lately. not because it matters or because it's the most destructive, but it is sort of the most blackly comical and humiliatingly debasing. that'll teach me to look past your shortcomings.

plus side of sexual frustration and female indifference; been reading a ton. Jean Genet, Jesus Aldapuerta, Samuel R. Delaney, Arthur Rimbaud, Maggie Nelson's Art of Cruelty is fascinating, as is Gates of Janus by Ian Brady. The Ultimate Dead Baby Joke Book is mostly retarded, but there was one joke i really liked, and plan to use at the next convenient uncomfortable silence;

Q: What's the difference between a peach and a dead baby?

A: I don't cum on a peach before i eat it.

done for mao.

U.S.A.! U.S.A.! vol. 59

sorry i haven't been around. computer's been like ass on toast, worrying about potential job prospects, trying to find a woman who isn't a flighty headcase, and working on new ways of writing. music stuff too... a lot of reading, watching movies, listening to music... trying to maintain some sanity as the world melts like the street trash of the film which bears their name.

found this one, though;

8 Reasons Young Americans Don't Fight Back: How the US Crushed Youth Resistance