Just Needed to Share vol.2

NP: System of a Down - the Metro

haven't been this bored in a long time.

this has been a day of reflection (ie procrastination ie lazy nothing).

i miss band practice. this has been our most productive year, but it came at a price. we lost a rhythm section... we lost a good friend over stupid childish crap that means nothing in the grand scheme of things...and we're being forced to watch the acceleration of the lesser bands, bands who don't posses and will never posses a fraction of our talent, imagination, dedication, integrity, and blah blah blah... dining on dollar-sign shaped shit sandwiches made from their hands and ass.

i miss good movies in theaters. seriously...what the fuck? enough already w/ CGI dreck, sentimental comedy, half-ass neo-grindhouse, and video games without the controllers.

i hate never having money ever. i hate that money takes up so much of my though yet i have none. it's frustrating and worst of all devoid of the kind of inspiration that gets me writing/being creative. it's fucking lame to write about being broke. who cares?

"things are tough all over" they say. i suppose. yet i still see people throwing dollars at the bar... at the music stores... at the food jobber.

the writers in my brain are also on strike. i can squeeze out lyrics like single grams of turd, but anything else is a struggle. seemed like a week ago it had passed, when i started putting together my first screenplay the House Behind her Body. 2 weeks later and only 6 pages are written, and two of those pages are transplants from a play i never finished last year.

i suck the fuck of all ass. the fantasy i can muster is being able to go on CD/DVD shopping sprees with my bandmates and/or my girlfriend (the only worthwhile, pleasant experiences i've had in these last 2 months have been the times spent with her...and the recording w/ the Communion).
i'm gonna go jerk off in traffic. i'll be picturing a school bus full of slow witted 4th graders crashing into a 22 car pile-up, erupting into a wall of flame as i come.

just needed to share.