Just Needed to Share vol. 15

NW: Akira

"...i loathe appetite. the satisfaction after it is quelled is nothing but gas, interfering with the expression it was supposed to have made possible. I hope for sick oranges, for cloud-cover on fire, for a bee-hive holocaust that incites riots between the multitude of insect kingdoms... "

i wrote some more to this. it was a rant that wrapped around the lyrics to the newest Communion song lyrics i had printed out, completely covering the margin with dense, crabbed scribbling that i can barely read. i was in the moment i suppose. I just don't have the energy or interest to type up the whole thing. it's wacked out, broodingly hallucinagetic, and right from the guts. it was good, but it's good that it was...that sort of thing.

had a big heart to heart with mother today. we're both getting our asses kicked by the world right now, and we're ever closer to taking it out on one another, when it really isn't either one of our fault. i dunno...maybe it is.

money is tighter than a virgin being raped on prom night. i have like 23 dollars in my wallet. i can't even cover gas anymore, and that's a bitch because it seems like many people depend on me for their transportation. i don't have the heart to tell these people "take a bus" or "get a car" or "one foot in front of the other", and i don't wanna be an asshole and start charging people for rides. these are my friends and loved ones. it's their friends and their loved ones. and to be blunt, they don't have the money to help me out, and i would feel like an even bigger waste of life if i did insist on payment for my driving services. they pay me back in richer forms anyway (CDs, Movies, and Sex. plus i get out of the house, which is a plus i have probably taken for granted), so i guess it's neither here nor there. if you're reading this, friends and loved ones of mine, sorry if i'm a cock about driving. it's nothing personal, and i know you mean well and aren't out to take advantage of me or anything. i just hope you'll understand where i'm coming from, and not dismiss my complaints and grievances.

so jesus, we're like 2 days away from The Dark Knight. the film i've been wanting to see since...well, since i first saw 1989's Batman. don't get me wrong, Batman Begins was masterful and most triumphant, but Christ on a crane, have you been paying attention to the promos and trailers for The Dark Knight? THIS is the Batman film the movie world has needed since day one. From what i can tell, it nails everything; a conflicted yet heroic Batman. A frighteningly mani(c)acal Joker. And what might be the most overlooked aspect of the film; the harrowing, heartbreaking arch of doomed D.A. Harvey Dent and the forked road of circumstance that leads to him becoming Two-Face, Batman's most tragic adversary... no perhaps about it. This is how i've pictured it since i was 10 years old. This was how i always saw Batman and his grotesque rogues gallery. but let me save this for the inevitable review for this blog.

alright i think i've written enough for now. see you later.

SW: Akira